many problems...

i'm scared f i lost 1 of my real friends...i think i can't move on if that happens...so i won't let that happen..but i don't think so that i can stop what will happen...because only god knows what's the best for me..and i think having my real friends is the best thing that happen to my life....f i could only decide what will happen in the future...i'll make it sure that i won't leave my real friends until the last day of my life....i can face all the trials...but not the trials involving my real friends..coz it will really hurts me when it comes in the point that i'll gonna leave them...i know i'm the type of person who tease my friends everyday...but its not my point to hurt them..i just only want to make them happy...and i know they don't get affected everytime i tease them..coz i won't tease any persons except my real friends only...and you know who are my real friends right?even if some people surrounds us don't like that we will be together everyday...i know they are just insecure...and they want to break our friendship...but sorry to them!!coz i won't give up my real friends easily...let them find their real friends...

thankz to god

i'm so very thankful to god that he gave me my real and good friends...god knows what is my happiness...and i don't want that this happiness that i feel will just lost like a bubbles...please lord!don't break our friendship..coz you know lord losing my friends,.,is just like you killed me...i hope this friendship of mine..won't be gone!coz i really love my friends...

i'm tired

.,ooh..i'm so tired of bein' third year...it's a kind of ..i want to be w/ my friends every minute and second of my life...but i can't coz my friends and i were busy doing this stupid projects and tupid assignments..etc.but even if i don't see them everytime...i see them everyday..and everytime that i have a vacant time i'll spend it to my friends and i won't spend it to studies or so what...i hate going to school,but i'm forced to go to school because of my friends...my friends are my inspiration..everytime my teacher scolded me..i think only of my friends,everytime my classmates talked about me,i think of my friends..everytime i have many problems i think of my friends...coz if i think of them i am happy..and i think that everytime thinking of them is a sort of therapy...so i won't leave my friends..no matter what happen...

what's the meaning of this dream

i've got a dream and it is really a scary..my real friends and i having a window shopping at peoplez at dat tym,,,but me and gari were talking ang we get offended jonnah,so i talked to jonnah and i apologized..as far as i remember,we were walking w/ a very big smile in our face,and then later on,all people inside d peoples were all running,to get outside,we asked 1 person,and d person said dat der r monsters..and after hearing that,we also run,as fast as we can,then we stop to an old school,and then locked all the doors,but,unforutnatelyd monsters came and opened d door,i,run and run until i just stop because i think of my real friends and i cried coz y did i leave them and i go back 2 dat freakin old school,but i found nothing..i don't know f my real friends are alive,but deep inside my heart,i will love my friends forever and ever...

*THE END*

problematiC

mmm..i don't know what is my problem but all people surrounds me are plastic...even thought they don't say anything badwords to me..i just keep on thinking that they don't like me!and i don't care of them!sometimes i keep on crying w/out any single reason..sometimes i keep on laughing...i know that all of my friends do not like me...because of their actions..it is so very clear to me that they don't like to talk w/ me or jam w/ me..but they are plastic you know...mmm..i trust nobody...coz they are all plasticz..and they are all using me!!!honestly!i'm not afraid to diE!.!because i don't like my life now!!i wanna kill myself but i won't..coz i'll wait the signal of god..!!i won't deny that i'm a chain smoker and a drunkard!!coz i want that all my friends know what is the real me..i'm a boyish,a gangster and a stupid person!!i'm not ashamed to tell to my friends who is the real me...mmm..whoever reads this stupid blog...help me!to change..